Yesha'yahu

Many have asked me "why do you choose these kinds of titles that are not ordinary and in other languages?" I guess then I wouldn't be unique? No that's not the total truth, but I do try and find titles that are different and unique, it must have a message in the title and wording itself. Yesha'yahu was a change from another title I had originally chosen, but the meaning was too close to another poetry book called Dukkha. So one day, as I reading some notes on the book of Isaiah I came across this name, Yesha'yahu, Hebrew meaning Yahweh is Salvation. According to (truthofyahweh.org) "this name is mentioned over six thousand times in the Bible manuscripts." But for me, it was the word salvation...in essence; God is our Salvation. I don't mean this in a religious or dogmatic tone. I mean this in the current suffering we all face as a human species, and with all the war, starvation, loneliness, addiction, mental illness, murder, abuse of our children, the list can go on and one. I felt immediately this was the right title for this book. Who else can bring the inner peace and safety from the human suffering in the world (in my opinion and experience) but God Himself? Not that we will be without suffering, but how He helps us through our suffering, longings, and needs. This was the reason I chose this title, for me it simply means, God is within us, waiting for us to reach out to him for love, peace and guidance. I have experienced this deeply in my own relationship with the Divine. As a male survivor, and one who continues to struggle on a daily basis with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, I needed a deeper healing; a healing from the soul wounding experience of child abuse. And my faith has helped eased much, not all, of the pain. This new book, moves away (I hope) from the finger pointing to some degree as I attempt to arrive here as the adult survivor who has been struggling with the forever impact of child abuse. Abuse affects people in many different ways; this is my personal expression of what I continue to deal with on a daily basis. I thank the power of faith to have taken me this far in my journey for inner peace and sanity. In my personal experience I do feel my experience with abuse has left me half dead and half alive. I live in both worlds; abuse has this power to almost literally destroy the sense of self. This has been my experience-half dead-half awake and the pain to have to struggle between the living and the dead. My life has been lived as though I have been a zombie walking, breathing, eating, achieving- merely existing; struggling daily with inner chaotic thoughts and feelings. I try to no longer look back and be angry at those individuals who created so much harm and damage in my life. I make every willingness and hard attempt to live in the present; yet, the feeling of brokenness remains the battle I continue to face on a daily basis. And this for sure has affected every aspect of my life, it has directed my life, and choices were made due to my circumstances, choices, which have left me with lots of issues to deal with on a daily basis. I feel trapped by my PTSD, by my skewed vision of the world, always hoping and praying for deeper healing. I would like to thank all the Unknown artists who shared their vision, their pain, their glory, and their story in art form. I treasured each and every one of them; this is why your work made it into Yesha'yahu.