Back to Me

In her gripping story of love, loss, and survival, Michelle recounts the events of her life, from her childhood in Brazil to the present day. Essentially, it is the tale of a young woman struggling to understand herself in today's chaotic and confusing world. The themes of the tale are practically universal to all women - discovering how to navigate romances with integrity, learning to love oneself in spite of negative body image, finding meaningful and fulfilling work, and coming to terms with mother-daughter relationships. Like so many, young Michelle is pulled away from her own authentic self through the trials and tribulations that life throws at her. But with tenacity and persistence, she finds her way Back to Me. In the drama that unfolds through Michelle's life story, readers will be taken along on a journey that includes the highest highs and lowest lows. In her relationships with men, for example, she experiences the brightest light and the darkest shadows. While her father remains a steadfast, kind, and loyal guide through her life, she is also chased by demonic thugs on the streets of Brazil, barely escaping their murderous intentions, and her romantic relationships too often devolve into abuse and neglect. Only time and maturity will bring her the taste of true love. Through all these events, one relationship overshadows them all, however - her contentious and heart-breaking relationship with her mother. It is only through her hard-fought battle for self-love that she is finally able to understand and forgive her mother... and to understand and forgive herself. Unlike most girls, Michelle refused to accept her mother as her role model. Their relationship was extremely toxic, filled with resentment, and rejection. One of the "values" Michelle's mother bestowed upon her was that she had to be thin to be accepted and loved by men. She grew up hating herself and how she looked. She fought with her body for a very long time, until one day something happened, and she realized that her weight didn't define her and that she was in fact capable of being loved, despite the way she looked. All of the relationships she attempted to have with men were also very toxic. Due to her relationship with her mother and the disgust she had for myself, she habitually chose to be with guys that didn't respect her, so she was always lost and lonely. Michelle knew that life shouldn't be so terrible, so she set out on a journey in search of herself. It was long, and most of the time very hurtful. It was not easy to face herself and her demons, but she was determined not to stop until she had found herself and the happiness that she knew was out there. There were many falls, many tears, many heartbreaks, many deceptions, and much frustration, but there were also many moments of joy, discovery, growth, maturation, love, and success. Lao Tzu wrote, "At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are, and you know what you want." Back to Me is the story of Camilla Dorand's journey back to that center, and an invitation for you to do the same. This book discusses empowerment, women's issues, personal growth, personal transformation, and inspiration for you to be able to change your life.
About the Author: Based in the United States since February/2013, Camilla is one of Brazil's foremost authorities on image consultancy and coach as a key way to enhance confidence, psychological well being and total health, both for women and men who seek an upgrade in their lives, personally and professionally. There she is known as Milla Mathias, an alias she adopted when she decided to quit law. Camilla has a very unique approach in the way she assists her clients. Her transformation techniques are very powerful and can be done through coaching sessions or seminars. Her mission is to make people feel genuinely positive and loving about themselves in a way that they start to believe that anything is possible for them to accomplish. Her initial career was as a lawyer, but that role didn't satisfy her, because she couldn't actually make a difference in people's lives. After losing almost eighty pounds on her own, Camilla redesigned her entire life - personally and professionally, making her energy shift, which was so powerful that she transformed into an actualizing person. Camilla feels that nothing is impossible for her to attain and that is what she passes on to her clients through her work. Her spiritual growth and understanding of the world and life's rules also enabled her to transform her life, as well as the people she runs into, being them clients or not. After she had thyroid cancer and had her gland removed, Camilla's voice got even stronger and louder! Her goal is to awaken people's best, help them let go of what holds them back, make them realize that they can be whoever they choose to be and help them achieve their own goals.