"Breaking Away From Breaking Down" By Steve Walter
ISBN: 9781847470911
Published: 2007
Pages: 171
Key Themes: manic depression, bi-polar disorder, breakdown
Description
FAST TRAIN APPROACHING. is a novella length autobiographical story of breakdown and survival. The text is interspersed with poems, which represent a form of compressed experience and a thread of continuity throughout the book. FAST TRAIN APPROACHING. is a frank and open account spanning the decade from Steve's first breakdown in 1997 (when he was diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder) to the present day. This is a confessional book, in many places raw, honest, and in parts shocking. It traces the circumstances and thoughts that contributed towards Steve's breakdown, through illness, losing touch with reality, to returning to whatever normality is. This book challenges common perceptions of mental illness and demonstrates how very real the experience of delusions can be.
About the Author
Steve Walter has written this story, not only because it is therapeutic, but also because he knew that other people often like to read and to understand someone else's experience, to help make sense of their own, or of problems experienced by those close to them. He also thinks it is important to talk about the issues surrounding mental ill health, in the interests of crushing stigma. Too often the experience and effects of depression, mania, delusions, are hushed up or result in unfair treatment and discrimination. Mental health problems are often treated as if there's been a death in the family. People avoid talking about them. In FAST TRAIN APPROACHING.Steve offers people an insight into his thinking, his emotions and, with the detail of the actual medical reports, distancing himself through the third person, he takes them through the pain. He shows that it is possible to come out the other side and, with the support of his employer, to be rehabilitated and integrated back into work, into life.
Book Extract
"So what happened? First, let me tell you the story in a nutshell. I'll sketch out the framework, then recreate the complete picture. In 1997, at the age of 37, I had my first breakdown. Two years later, my second. Up until then life had been relatively uneventful, more or less ordinary. It had followed a familiar pattern: school, university, further qualifications, grandparents died. Grandparents I'd loved. I kept fairly fit, healthy, hobbies, cycling, drama, writing, got married had children. My life was normal. At least as normal as life ever is.
The first time, it built up slowly. As well as relationship issues at home, there were factors at work such as the constant pressure to meet deadlines - lunch was the all too familiar hurried sandwich at the desk. On one occasion, I took what most would regard as a 'minor conflict' with a senior manager at work (over a stress research project no less!) as a major, personal insult and this blew the lid off everything for me.
Life began to race wildly. I was on a high. My behaviour was changing. Gradually, more people realised that there was something wrong. At first, as far as I was concerned, I was having one of the best times of my life - I had so much creative energy. Ideas would come flooding in and I wanted to do everything, all at once.
