How to be a "G"

My reason for writing this book is to help people who are struggling with themselves, struggling with who they really are and how to get the life they want. I want to help others discover what I did. I want people to find out what's stopping them from getting what they want in life. But please realize that that any information that I am sharing is useless unless you the reader understands and applies it. I would like to share my life experiences and perspective with everyone. I have suffered from depression, anxiety, low self-image and self-esteem. I hated what I saw in the mirror. What people thought of me ruled my world. I had a victim mentality. I sold and used drugs. I became a fugitive and left the country with serious drug charges. My best friend was a pimp. I hung out with gangbangers. I robbed people and people robbed me. I've taken many things that never belonged to me. I've been shot at and I've seen someone almost get stabbed to death in front of my eyes. I've been in more fights then I can remember. I've cheated on every girlfriend I ever had. I've been bullied and I've bullied others. I've hurt the ones I loved. I've dealt with fear of change, success, failure, and low self-worth on a regular basis. I've attempted to kill myself twice. I've been broke. I've been homeless. I've been to jail over 13 times. There's not much I haven't seen or done by the age of 28. Today is different. I'm the opposite. I have purpose. I'm joyful and live with passion, love, and a new attitude that serves me greatly. I know what the dark place looks like, and I know what the bright side looks like as well. I know what it's like to live without joy because that's all I could seek after finding nothing in the life I was leading. Being on the other end and having grown so much spiritually and mentally, I've been able to see all the progress I've gained. I feel very strongly about sharing this information to the world based on all the suffering I put myself through. I grew up in a very nice neighborhood in southern California; my mother being an author and my father a lawyer. At an early age I saw grown adults smile at each other and then speak badly behind their backs. I saw people competing: who had the nicest car, house etc. I saw people living these materialistic lives. It was plastic. I saw spoiled kids who got everything they wanted (which included myself). Nothing seemed real to me. As a result I strongly desired to find real people and see real things. I instantly gravitated towards rap, gangbangers, thugs, entrepreneurs, inventors. I would look at these people and just be amazed how they could move through life like that. They were loud, flamboyant, strong, opinionated, and creative with their choice of words. I paid all my attention to this and I was fascinated. They had this attitude of "I'm going to be me no matter what". "This is who I am and if you don't like it- too bad." I also wondered how they were able to make money doing what they did. I tried to replicate their style, hoping I could be a free, independent soul like them. I tried dressing like them, talking like them, and listening to their type of music. But I could never do what they did; it wasn't authentic. I couldn't express my uniqueness or be original. People saw right through this and I suffered for it. I realized I can't be anyone, but myself. That's how the human is designed. I researched and studied trial and error in my own life. I also studied the most successful people in the world who have gone through similar life experiences. I came to the realization that it's not how you look or what you say or how society says to live. It's a mindset, an attitude. If you think "G", therefore you are a "G", which I will define in the first chapter. Changed perception combined with the will to take actions equals tremendous results.
About the Author: I'm just a man who has seen it all and spent more time focusing on the wrong things then the right things. I lived a wreck less like where I've done everything you could think of. I've been to the dark side. I know what its like. I've gotten out and the only thing that saved me was knowledge. Without Information I would been dead or in jail. Those were my two outcomes. I had no other choice but to change, when you've looked for the truth outside of yourself for so many years. I've tried to be someone else, didn't work. I've tried the drugs, didn't work. I've had the money, didn't work. I've had the house, cars, business, and didn't work. What left? Spiritual Enlightenment. I'm a truth seeker and I wanted something more. I wanted a connection to what I've been missing. I needed me! It took me many years and I still have to work on myself everyday, but progress and self-growth and always putting in a 100 percent of myself into everything I do is my new drug. Self- mastery is my new drug. Self-awareness and not absorbing others energy is my new drug. I suggest you take a hit. Learn how to love yourself and find the real truth about yourself in the most gangster way.